Updating spree!!

Since recently ive gotton back into twitter0stalking, ive decided to update on here as well.

Since ive last updated, ive moved in with dean. Its been about 4 months now, and i have to say im LOVING it. Although i may complain about him, i absolutly love him more than anything in the world. He is such an amzing person, and is always there for me when i need him. I really hope he enjoys living with me as much as i do. I try not to be a pain in the butt 0 i know how guys like to dish on their girls when they arent around, and i really try to not give him any reason to.

We have also adopted a puppy - Monster! He is a german shepard mix, but OBVIOUSLY beagle as well, considering he loooves to bark and whine. He is becoming such a good boy, for me at least. he will still pee in the house when dean is home with him, biut he NEVER dies it when i am. He now knows how to sit and give paw- kinda. We are still working on it.

Rick is moving out next week - then it will be just dean, me and the puppy. Our little family <3.

Job situation is the same. Im still suck at my piece of shit job where i am treated with NO respect or dignity. I frickin went to college for chists sake, but at BVH, apparently that doesnt count. Im sorry that i didnt take a stupid test to be a tech, and if i did i would pass with flying colors. It really pisses me off that people who have no experience are graduated into doing things at work that even i cant do, when these people are going to school ONLINE. I suffered through four years of school and did well. what the fuck. I can go to a vet a mile down the road and work as a tech in ct. IF i get hired. So, im really hoping to get a job soon that will avctually utilize my skills. I have been really depressed lately because of this job thing. ALl i ever want to do is sleep, and i know it isnt all because my teeth hurt. I really feel like a failure. Why does no one want to hire me? I dont think i would do a bad job, i am so interested in research and i apply myself to everything in my life that i want to. I generally dont give up on things, but this is getting difficult. I find it really hard to wake up in the morning and go to work these days. All i want to do is stay at home and sleep. I really need a change in my life.

I am dying to do somethign with my hair as well. lately i have been feeling really ugly. Im sure its because i am depressed, i havent been putting any effort into my looks. I want to dye it or do soemthign that will change the way i look. Maybe get rid of my freckles? i dont like them either. My face is always breaking out 0 no matter what i do or how ofteni wash and medicate. I just feel like nothing is going right for me that i planned in my life! I am 23 - and just stuck, ugh. Its time for me to do something.